Hugs

Hugs, the joy of hugs. Hug are just so powerful. They are symbols of forgiveness. They always are what you do when your super excited. Hugs even show that you miss you someone or just to symbolize love of someone. Hugs are amazing.
For me, hugs usually make my day a little better.

So if you ever see me even if you don't know me to well just give me a hug (:

Texting and people.

So today I wanted to talk to you guys about people. Just people in general and how I feel about things.

First off, I text a LOT but there is really only one person I end up texting now. Nope sorry no names here but she may not know this( but she probably does) but she is amazing in every way. She has helped me so much over the past two years, I think, and then she helped me more with things she didn't even know she was helping me with. That is how amazing she is. Whenever I need to go talk to someone about something urgent, I always turn to her because I can rely on her answering the text and for her to be there listening. And if she doesn't that fine, we usually end up finding a time to do it. In the end I pretty much owe my life to her because without her, I wouldn't be where I am today, still kinda depressed in a way but nothing as bad as it used to be.
Answering a text is pretty important sometimes, when you need to get a hold of someone texting just see to be the way to go unless it's an emergency then obviously you call them. But like me, what if I want to talk to someone about something that seems important in my life that cause be very life threating or life changing and the person i want to talk to about this doesn't answer their text. Thats pretty lame -_- Don't you agree? I have just come to a point in my life where if you wanna talk to me then you will find a way to get a hold of me. I always have my phone with me and if you ever need anything I'm there for yah. Sure maybe they just don't respond one or twice that you text them but what if you text them numerous times and they don't answer back. It makes you feel pretty lame in that you were thinking about them wanting to talk to them but were they doing the same? Nope they didn't even care enough to send a simple text saying "Hi(:" or "heyy" back and they constantly ignore all the text you send them in the future. Well if people do that, they can have fun by themselves without me because whats the point of being friends with someone that just doesn't even care enough to talk back to you?
So yeah guys, that my take on texting and people (:

Homecoming...Part 2

Boy, what have I done now? So I got this job at Vector Marketingselling Cutco knives. All I have to say is that is the worst job possible. Itis super degrading and tomorrow I will be quitting that job. Anyways, i figuredsince the other post really had nothing to do with homecoming that i dedicatethis one to more of that. So homecoming seemed like a big deal at the highschool. They had the x games come out for us to see and then they had a bandplay. Both which i was not a part of. Then came the game, even though we won48-14, it was a pretty boring game overall. The one person i really wanted tosee, well she couldn't make it. Oh well. After the game a few of us wentto Perkins and had some food. It was pretty cool. A while later,there seem to be a new table forming and it was the drama kids and some of thepeople from my group decided to straggle over there but i decided toleave early and leave all the drama kids there. They seem to have had a funnight themselves.

That night i started to slowly feel like well, i just don't belonghere anymore. The next day kind of strengthen that feeling as well. Looking around i saw all these people at pictures and how they all seem to be having somuch fun and i thought to myself "wow, all these people and it is like ijust don’t belong with these people anymore" I slowly become more and moreinvisible to people. It's like they don’t care anymore and wouldn't even knowif something happened to me. Slowly become invisible until i vanish leaving notraces of being there anymore, no traces that i was once their friend, someeven their best friend. and now...nothing. At the dance, it felt like thatagain, i seem to go down these paths a lot. depression is just something ipretty much deal with every single day. I don’t think i ever had a day in highschool where i didn't feel depressed. It is just so normal. The dance, well oneperson wanted to dance with but never saw her throughout the dance so icouldn't ask her to dance at all. Sad: / after the dance we went to a friend’shouse to chill for a while, we pretty much watched a movie and played this gamecalled blurt. So that’s pretty much how my weekend went and how you see mythought process goes as i slowly but surely wind the stairs toward depressiononce again

talk to you some other time

Steven

Homecoming and Senior Year

Now looking back on the homecoming dance, I probably would of done something different. Sure it was fun but it could of been better. I thought about asking her to the dance for so long! But as we hung out she said how a bunch of guys asked her already. Still I should of asked. I feel as though she knew about it too and was hinting me to, but I didn't really get the hint at the time..but then again maybe it wasn't a hint at all. But boy I kinda still want her. But Its so weird when I like 3 different people, two of which I dated before and still want to date more. The one person I haven't dated yet, I can't tell how it is. Well it's senior year. My final year with all these people. Then after id never see even again :/ so many people I will miss :( idk how it's going to be without them. I just can't imagine my life without them. They mean so much to me. The girl that Ive know for almost 5 years and knows so much about me and I care so much about her, the swim team!, the girl from sacs who really changed my views on life just to name a few. Man what am I going to do without them! They have made me who I am today. I just love them so much! Seniors 2012 lets live it up like there no tomorrow!(: