I'm Lonely

7 weeks ago, I moved into this school. 7 weeks ago, my life changed. Now Im just a college kid that just trying to find his place upon this world. Eighth floor Thompson Hall is where I will be. Eighth floor and 9th floor are the only floors that I have friends in. Actually these 2 floors are the only friends I have. I feel so alone in this place.  I have yet to find my place here. Everyone seems to have made some great friends and me, well that's a different story. I haven't found anyone that i can relate to or anyone that I can call my best friend because of how much we are alike. Sure I have made some fends but will those friends be there for me when I need them the most. Will they be like the friends from back home? I wish there was someone here from home :(

I'm Alive Post

Tomorrow marks the 4th week in college. This life has been so much more different than I thought. So much has changed since I have came here. But before I write about that, there is something that I have to talk about before college. The final month of summer, so much happened that I can say I do not feel to proud of. By the end of the summer I ended up fitting the stereotype of a bad guy. I just wanted to have fun but in the end for me to have the "fun" i wanted, I sacrifice some of my friends. I feel like I messed everything up back home. The close friends back home that I had, just aren't even friends anymore. What I did was horrible and consequently I deserved this. I just hope that I day they will forgive me.

I don't want to talk about that anymore, lets move on to the college life. I came here scared, scared that I would not make friends but thanks to living on the pharmacy floor i have made some great fiends so far. Even though I have made some great friends I still miss some of my old friends that have been there for me even when i mess things up. Life isn't too shabby right now but who knows what the future brings for me. This was just a short post that i wanted to write, just so people know im still alive.

Until next time
The Secret Azian Man

Friends

Today we are graduates. Tomorrow..? We ended one journey in our lives and have now closed the door but the saying goes " As one door closes, another opens." Our lives at Shakopee High School is now over. The memories sealed away in a vault to never be tampered nor touched again. In just a few months many of us will be heading off to far off places to do extraordinary things. Most of us will be heading off to college in afar places. What will we become in these places. The friends here have made the journey oh so wonderful. Some of these friends we call our best friends but too many times I have seen it happen that they leave as best friends and come back nothing. Where will we be a year from now when school has ended for most people in their first year at college? Will you still have the same best friend that you did before you left? Will you still be friends with them at all? It is a scary thought to think about in just a few months, our lives will be changed. The people we hang out with, the friends we have and ultimately who we are. To my close friends, Lets not lose contact with one another and hopefully we still are best friends when we meet again next summer :D

Steven

The First Day of the Rest of Our Lives

Today was the last day of high school for many people. Today we say goodbye to the class of 2012. Everyone is so excited for it all to be over. After we came home from a track meet one night, it hit me. The last few days that I ever will be here competing for this team, creating memories and making amazing friends.  As I walk through the high school school, through the empty hallways and the empty classrooms, I reminisce of all those time I sat in those chairs and walked down the halls. I think back on the people that were there for me most. But most of all I think of how much things have changed from when I got here until now. How much my friends have changed and how much my life has changed. Changed for the better I feel like. Not only were there memories of my high school career at the high school but also at the Junior High; The place where I played my sports. From the long winter season all cooped up inside a pool to the outdoors of the treacherous weather of track season. I am actually going to miss high school. Life is all but a third done already. The childhood years are over now. These next feel months are where we see who are friends really were and which friends we decide to keep and hold close to us.

Summer is upon us now and like many others, I'm so glad that it is finally here. The rest of our lives are upon us now. Summer, the finally time we can all be together one last time/ one last hurraw before we all head off to college. This summer i just wanted to do one thing but now that one thing will not even happen much sadly. I just was not expecting this to happen so soon. I wasn't ready for this routine to happen. I was expecting to be able to be there every couple days and just let the world go by because life would always be perfect. Seriously though, right now with her by my side, I feel like life is complete. I feel like she is that person that we all wait to find, the person that you know you love and would do anything for. The person that makes you go giddy on the inside every time you see them. I know that it may seem weird to some people because we have only been dating for a couple weeks, yes weeks not months nor years but the thing is, I have been chasing and crashing at times to be with her. I just hope that even though we have a slight visitation problem that it does not interfere with anything or any plans.

The most beautiful discovery true friends make is that they can grow separately without growing apart.
Steven :D
P.S.


Amber Louise:) I like the relationship that we have. We are just like best friends but we have an extra part of the friendship that makes us boyfriend/ girlfriend. That's just the way I like it. College, the hardest part of a relationship is college. For me to want to be with her, we first need to pass through college. Once I pass college and stay with her, then i can be with her for a long time. She is like the perfect girl that I never thought I could have. She super smart especially in math ;) Not only is she smart, she is also very gorgeous! If you have ever looked in her eyes, you would see that sparkle in her eyes. Her brown eyes that make you melt inside whenever I look and makes me want to be with her just a little bit more. Then when she smiles, you cannot help but to smile back at her. Just seeing her smile makes your day just a little bit better. She has one of those smiles that makes your day better when your day isn't the greatest. Besides being gorgeous and smart she also has such a fantastic personality. She has changed me without knowing it. She has been like a small role model for me. How can one be so kind, so smart and yet be a good child? She help stride me to become a better person as well. For me to be a good person that didn't have to do stupid things to have friends. She helped me see that your closest friends are the ones that accept you for just the way you are even if there are flaws. She has helped me some much more that she probably knows. Not only did she make me just a better person and a better friend, she has helped me when I needed the most, when people started to disappear, she stayed by my side and helped me get through my depression. The time where I just wanted to not be seen or heard. The time where life just seem so stupid. The time where life almost ended for me. She was one of the few that took the time to help me get better, to make sure I did not do anything stupid. She is more amazing than she give herself credit for. She may not think that she is anything special but she is definitely special to me. She is one of those people I do not want to see gone in my life. I would become lost without her. The girl of my dreams, actually mine. I thought catching the dream girl and living happily ever after only happens in movies.


you found the secret post.
Steven  :D