Tuesday, January 1, 2013
1st post of 2013
Looking at back on the past, mistakes were made, happiness happened, friends were made and ultimately life happened. No matter what happened over the year life still went on around me.
Looking at life now, everything has changed from summer. Everyone around me has fallen into a relationship. They have someone special to hold tight. Someone that cares a lot about them and would do anything for them. It just makes me so happy for them but so jealous as well. All I want is to find someone that can be that person. Someone that I can hold and would make my day just so much better. Today I helped my best friend with his relationship. It's so hard to make sure that they are happy sometimes.They have traveled down a bumpy road and trying to just head back to smooth sailings. A bro code was broken in this process. You never try to get the girl on your best friend. You NEVER try to break a relationship up, unless it is harmful to their health. How does one handle this? Who can you trust after this when the best friend is hitting on the girlfriend?
Why does everyone come to me when they have a relationship question? Why is the advice I give so much more powerful then someone else's? It may sound weird but sometimes I wish I was on the other side of this. I just want to be on the side with the relationship fixing problems that I had with her. Making the bond even stronger. Sadly though, I just haven't found the one yet, I thought I did but it wasn't what I expected. People around keep telling me to stop worrying about relationships but to focus on school. How can I focus when all I can think about is this? I hate thinking how lonely I really am. It maybe weird but I do better in school when I have a girlfriend just because then I'm actually happy with myself and able to do other things.
I just realized that all I'm really doing in this post is rambling and rambling on.
Anyways I just wanna cuddle >.< is that so much to ask?
Steven
Looking at life now, everything has changed from summer. Everyone around me has fallen into a relationship. They have someone special to hold tight. Someone that cares a lot about them and would do anything for them. It just makes me so happy for them but so jealous as well. All I want is to find someone that can be that person. Someone that I can hold and would make my day just so much better. Today I helped my best friend with his relationship. It's so hard to make sure that they are happy sometimes.They have traveled down a bumpy road and trying to just head back to smooth sailings. A bro code was broken in this process. You never try to get the girl on your best friend. You NEVER try to break a relationship up, unless it is harmful to their health. How does one handle this? Who can you trust after this when the best friend is hitting on the girlfriend?
Why does everyone come to me when they have a relationship question? Why is the advice I give so much more powerful then someone else's? It may sound weird but sometimes I wish I was on the other side of this. I just want to be on the side with the relationship fixing problems that I had with her. Making the bond even stronger. Sadly though, I just haven't found the one yet, I thought I did but it wasn't what I expected. People around keep telling me to stop worrying about relationships but to focus on school. How can I focus when all I can think about is this? I hate thinking how lonely I really am. It maybe weird but I do better in school when I have a girlfriend just because then I'm actually happy with myself and able to do other things.
I just realized that all I'm really doing in this post is rambling and rambling on.
Anyways I just wanna cuddle >.< is that so much to ask?
Steven
Happy New Years
First post of the year! I would like to start by saying Happy New Years to everyone out there. May all your dreams, resolutions and wishes be true!
I thought about writing a post reflecting my year but why bother, my life is already written on the pages already.I just continue with the same old stuff.
Everyone always ask what your new years resolution so for this year I want to be strong, I want to be "fit", I want to make friends that mean everything to me. Finally I want to be less shy to people. These don't seem to hard to do. I don't like making resolution in which I can't do. Why bother? These are the goals that I want to achieve!
So once again Happy New Year, May good fortune be upon you :D
Steven
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