Blah!!

So I decided to tell the person i like how i really feel about them. Now its probably time for me to move on. By moving on it might be to not do anything with school anymore. Just might quit choir and stop going to lunch. and seeing people. Moving on, this could be the hardest thing for me to do. Since all she wants is to be friends and to not hurt me, then maybe i really should stop trying. Well its going to a tough rest of the year but hopefully things will get better soon.

Blah!

All i want for chirstmas is someone that loves me

So today was a pretty great day. We played water polo with the alumni group and then i did some chores that had to be done. I even got a present for a special someone. Later that night i went bowling with that person and some other friends. Little did i know she was with someone else ... yeah...thats great. Well im back to my normal self again. All boring and down in the slums. Then again i haven't really left that area for a very long time. Now i feel stupid because i really thought i had a chance again. Debating if i should really even try or just give up forever. Giving up, losing hope, lost my ways. Thats how i feel. I just really wish someone could help me, help me with this. Help me get back on my feet. :/

Chicken >.<

So, I don't know how to say this but... Yeah exactly I have no idea what to say. I enjoy being around you so much and I really wanna go out with you again but I'm too scared to make a move...again. I feel like you feel that we are meant to be friends and that's it nothing more nothing less. And that's all we will be. But I want more, I want to be together with you. Yeah I know I'm a chicken and thats probably the reason that I never will have a chance again but you know what. I really like you and I don't wanna ruin our friendship again so I'm stuck between a rock and a hard place ;/

you

I saw you
I liked you
I went for you
I dated you
I screwed up
Now everyday i wonder what could of been
I saw you
I really like you
Everyday i wonder if it will be again