My gut feeling... :/

Hmm I can sense that there is something wrong between me and amber..I thought everything was cool but idk anymore. She doesn't even tell me anything anymore..our talks are so boring now..:( I'm scared. I don't wanna lose her. And to top things off her formspring that someone asked if she was going to snowball with anyone.said she it messed up. So wait does that mean that she isn't going with me? Umm ok I'm pretty sure I told her that I will be there. Ok? Yeah Uh thanks for telling me this? Something wrong..I can sense it

Coming Upon Snowball

Hmm interesting week this one was. Amber and I are , I think, very good except for today but that was nothing. Hmm it was weird! I was feeling jealousy when she decided to sit with Cody and Luke but not me :/ I dint like that feeling. The other days were boring and saturday we did 10,000 yard day and I completed it! Well that's it. Snowball week is going to be interesting.. Love y'all

Gee...Without Her I Am Lost

This week started off pretty good doing the same old again and again. Swim meet Saturday was ok :p the best part of the week was my one month with amber. Though it was just watching movies, just her being there with me made everything better in life. Gee Idk what I would do without her now..each week I feel as though we get closer and closer (: recently I found out I had a meet on the day of the dance so hopefully things will be good and I'll make it back with plenty of time left. First week of February here I come. Things to do next week : get caught up on hw, do something cute for amber, maybe go to the dance competition. Good night world

Answer (:

Hmm I don't know what it is anymore but I just can't stop thinking about amber and all I wanna do now is be with her all the time. This week was good overall nothing bad really happen and nothing super awesome happened either. Pretty mellow week. And to the question earlier, I think that she different in the fact that we have been close friends before we went out so that's a huge plus. Also she has the warmest heart that I have seen. She has such a super personality and she always gives off such vibrant vibes :) so here to the end of the note of week 3.

Question that roamed my mind

So amber and i talked but the one thing that stuck out was when she asked me " what makes me different from all your other gf?" it got me thinking, what is so different about amber than any of the other ones?

Random Thinking of the Day

Today is just a day of me thinking, what happens now? We both have found out that we like each other but is this as far as we are going to go? I wish I could just solve this problem. I really really want you <3 I'm just sooo afraid right now. I'm afraid that we would change and not be as good as it is right now. I just don't it to happen the same way as the other person. I just want it so that were going out and nothing changes and or it gets better than before :) I just wish it would happen I just do.

Hanging with Amber

So now its the second entry of 52 that i am doing. First off i would like to say i love you more that yiu ever loved me amber (not true ;P love amber) ;) boy has this week been long with 3 swim meets plus a break next monday for mlk day. Well im doing good so far in school not much stress there. Got to hang with amber ;) everytime we hang it gets better and better :) well thats it nothing special this week

Reflections upon 2010 (:

2010 has been an interesting year for me. Lots of things has happened, ending 10th grade and ending drama Josie was done. Then throughout the summer lots and lots happened :) I started to talk to amber more, I swam for barracudas and I became friends with Gretta and heather. They remind me of the day when we went to Jumba juice when I was about to park but accidently hit the gas pedal and almost ran into a window :p lots of random times at kj house :) then school started and pseo was the way to go :) sure it was fun but I still missed high school a lot :/ good thing I had choir :) and with barracudas, I would go to kj house alot. With this huge crush on her and all the times we hung out, I asked her to the homecoming dance :) after the dance I asked her out but she respectively declined :\ it crushed me but it was bound to happen..oh well I took the risk and closed a door while opening new one. Throughout that whole tine amber and I would text a lot, pretty much everynight. We would help each other problems and try to figure out what the best thing to do would be. That leads us up to October ish november. Amber and I had a thing going but she decided to not let it go anywhere and I respected it since I understand where she coming from. Our friendship had grown since the summer and both of us were afraid of what could happen so we didn't do anything about it. Honestlly I was pretty sad but I didn't let it bring me down...much. So now it's December and nothing great happened before break. Then winter break happened and it's so boring! We started break with amber and I going to see tron in 3D haha but it was a fail just trying to figure out what movie to watch :) then she came over to hang and we watched a movie and everything felt just right and the world was perfect. So we talked about it and at Jacob party on dec 29 after watching zombieland..ik how romantic teehee, I asked her out and she said yes :) <3 and as we near the end of 2010 I end it with great success and with the most amazing person ever :)

Documents I Am Riting You.

I feel as though I should start writing a journal every week and those days that deserve a journal entry. So every Sunday I reflect back on the week (:

1st Week of the entire year!

So the first week of the new year has about come to a close. And lots of things have been made clear. On Monday when people were going back to school amber and I , well we were a weird couple and it felt as though it was partially awkward but as the week went on it got better and by Thursday and friday..no more awkwardness ;) umm on Thursday and saturday had a swim meet lost them both but P.R. In both so good bad meet :p so yeah things have started pretty great. :)