Life

Well once again here I am back on the dark side. Once again, depressed I am. Sad that a friend got broken up with, with a girl for over four years and she did it in a mean way. Sad that once again for the 19th day I've been yelled at to go study...even though there has been only 17 days of school so far. Depressed that I feel like I've been living a life of nothing. Once again i feel like not living anymore. I just do not know what to do anymore.. ooh here my mom goes yelling again..... URG!
There hasn't been a day since school started where i haven't been stressed out. Even of the first day when i had no homework i was stressed out. Stressed out that my mom was yelling at me to do homework of non existent. I can't even do the things i like to do anymore. Anytime i want to go play some video games to relieve some of this stress my mom yells at me to go and study and stop wasting time on this crap. Its like WHAT THE FUCK!  I just finished studying and now your yelling at me to study some more even though i need a stress reliever. Yes i know you dont know what that was and you had no life when you were in college because all you talk about is the fact that you studied all the time and even when there was nothing left to study you would still study. It shows now. You have no friends at all. You cant even be friends with the neighbors either. It really shows. AND NO i do not want to be like you and live my life with no friends. i wanna have a life, a successful life and yeah i know when to study. You treat me like a fucking first grader and not knowing what the fuck homework is. NO i have gone through 12 years of schooling now. I know when to do homework and that it is important.
I feel like sometimes i dont belong in this family.

Well, trying to keep my head held high and staying alive
Steven