Homecoming...Part 2

Boy, what have I done now? So I got this job at Vector Marketingselling Cutco knives. All I have to say is that is the worst job possible. Itis super degrading and tomorrow I will be quitting that job. Anyways, i figuredsince the other post really had nothing to do with homecoming that i dedicatethis one to more of that. So homecoming seemed like a big deal at the highschool. They had the x games come out for us to see and then they had a bandplay. Both which i was not a part of. Then came the game, even though we won48-14, it was a pretty boring game overall. The one person i really wanted tosee, well she couldn't make it. Oh well. After the game a few of us wentto Perkins and had some food. It was pretty cool. A while later,there seem to be a new table forming and it was the drama kids and some of thepeople from my group decided to straggle over there but i decided toleave early and leave all the drama kids there. They seem to have had a funnight themselves.

That night i started to slowly feel like well, i just don't belonghere anymore. The next day kind of strengthen that feeling as well. Looking around i saw all these people at pictures and how they all seem to be having somuch fun and i thought to myself "wow, all these people and it is like ijust don’t belong with these people anymore" I slowly become more and moreinvisible to people. It's like they don’t care anymore and wouldn't even knowif something happened to me. Slowly become invisible until i vanish leaving notraces of being there anymore, no traces that i was once their friend, someeven their best friend. and now...nothing. At the dance, it felt like thatagain, i seem to go down these paths a lot. depression is just something ipretty much deal with every single day. I don’t think i ever had a day in highschool where i didn't feel depressed. It is just so normal. The dance, well oneperson wanted to dance with but never saw her throughout the dance so icouldn't ask her to dance at all. Sad: / after the dance we went to a friend’shouse to chill for a while, we pretty much watched a movie and played this gamecalled blurt. So that’s pretty much how my weekend went and how you see mythought process goes as i slowly but surely wind the stairs toward depressiononce again

talk to you some other time

Steven