cant handle it anymore

There are some nights when I wish i had alcohol and so that i can drink till there no end. Drink away the pain of reality. Sometimes I just cannot handle it. Sometimes i just do not know what to do anymore. No one to really talk about my problems with, and its not like any of these are serious problems at all but in my head they are. If i would have to compare my problem with something it would be like a skinny girl seeing herself not so skinny kind of problem. Drinking my problems away, I'm on my last thread with this stuff, sometimes I just have to say goodbye to it all.